August 2010
For some reason,
I feel happy again =)
Well after I broke down crying, I prayed that God would just give me a sign that everything would be okay. And yet again he answered. I got advice from my accountability partner in L.A and one from here. There were people that showed that they actually cared. And now, I feel happy and hopeful yet again. And I can really say, I’m a little bit stronger then how I was...
I got a confirmation today.
It sucks. To start off school with burdens already weighing down on me. Today I walked into my brothers room to find my scissors. I dug around and found it. Drugs. I seriously wanted to break down crying. But I couldn’t. I cried so much the last two days I literally ran out of tears. But I feel them coming now. I really don’t know what to say or what to do. I hate it, I hate that I...
Crying doesn't make you weak, cause you get...
Today I just felt overwhelmed with alot of feelings. I tried my hardest to just be happy throughout the day cause I guess I taught myself to force happiness. But near the end I just thought of family issues. I could probably write two pages filled with things about my family but I’ll just leave it at that. So I said to myself,”Irene, get yourself into a room alone, and pray.” So...
I really need an accountability partner.
Someone I can actually talk to everyday about everything.
Someone I can rant to without holding back.
Someone that actually keeps up talking to me everyday about how everything is going.
Someone that can give me advice straight from their heart.
Someone who can make me truely smile at least once a week.
Someone who will grow as a person with me.
Someone who knows me inside and out.
Someone...
I was about to sleep when I forgot to do Qt
So I immidiately got my butt off the bed and switched on the lights. I dug into my backpack and took out my lovely Bible. I was reading and reading and almost cried cause of all the things I was shown. Then I remembered a few things and decided to write them down here.
01. The Bible could be just a book with words if you make it. But if you’re filled with the spirit it has the powers to...
“Extraordinary people are ordinary people doing extraordinary things in ordinary...”
=)
I’m happy today. I’m usually happy but today seems to be one of those days where I think of all the good things in the world.
I really want to go to an aquarium.
With the people I love.
The last time I went was when I was too young to really appreciate it. That goes for alot of other things too.
When reality hits me
It sucks. To be taken away from happiness. But it has to happen. I was wondering when the next big blow would hit me and I guess it’s here. I don’t have much to say but here it is. Last night I heard my parents yelling at eachother. I didn’t know what was going on so I muted the t.v and listened. My dad was telling my mom about how my brother’s roomates were acting...
Just gotta get this off my chest,
Mmm, well the other day, a close person to me expressed how lucky I am and that I’m lucky to be ‘rich’. It bothered me alot. First off, I’m not rich. I have zero money and my parents work hard for what we do get. Second, life isn’t fair, everyone will have problems. Some people will suffer more than others, but that’s just how life is. I have my problems too. I...
“Sometimes in life you don’t choose the path you walk in. But we can choose...”
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“He’s better than the man of my dreams. Because he’s real.”
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